Fun kill sex death fear mental scarring~

brain cells dying

I'm just gonna curl up in the corner over there. And also not try to beat my head against the wall for some of the stupid I've read tonight.

"A great deal of fanfic is the product of longing by women for stories that bear some semblance to the realities of the human struggle for understanding, affection, and communication - all the things studios believe would be slow and boring if developed on the screen. And sex, while not boring, needs to be slow - or approached slowly in the context of character-driven relationships - in order to have the emotional content that women find satisfying."

Quoted in full with emph mine because oh gosh the issues. Yes, I like plot for the most part. But 1. WOMEN LIKE PORN FOR THE SAKE OF PORN SOMETIMES. I mean, has this book heard of PWP? 2. The sexism burns, so much. In general stuff I've found for my research burns. Did you know all slash writers are hetro chicks? And most of all none are guys. 3. I also like hatesex and hateflirting and fightflirting etc. This idea of fic in there is so so narrow and vanilla.

BUT I HAVE CATS DON'T DANCE ON. Which kinda makes things better. And my paper about gender in current Disney and Pixar films is a lot more fun.

Fandom research help

Being a brave or stupid, I'm doing a research paper on slash writers as a subculture for class. Stupid because I'll be talking in front of the class about it. Pray I don't die of blushing.

ANYWAY, anyone have recommendations of places to go for research, good papers etc
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Eva+Ocelot snake cuddle

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If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just by existing and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this in your journal.

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I feel like doing something creative. Maybe I can get rid of backlog of blog posts for class and do either those analyses I keep thinking about, or the Japanese lj class. Or writing. Or Little Big Planet level.

I don't know. Maybe I'll be lazy/whatever again and do none of the above.
Sleep? BAH!

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First week of class, DONE! And ohgosh am I'm going to be bloging, three out of my four classes have a blog requirement, two of them being weekly. We'll see how that goes.

Lots of other stuff going on, including me finally starting to see Durarara (If I'd known it was by the writer of Baccano!, I would have got to it faster. But thank goodness for cosplayers getting you into series) and watching some other stuff. Sometime soon I want to do a post about Wandering Son, I liked it as entertainment but also lots to dissect with the how. Miiight even do episode by episode analysis, we'll see.

But in this post mainly wanted to mention how today went. It started late as holiday weekends should for college students though not really since I went to bed at 5am. |D STILL 7 HOURS SLEEP, but then I decided today was the day to try out the public transit some so I was out for a little over seven hours. Dad said I was my mother's kid for doing that, he would have stayed in. Didn't say it to him, but I thought that might have been the saner choice.

So tired.

It was both fun and tiring and certain parts were not so good. Like where one bus stopped somewhere besides for where the stop was, so I got inpatient waiting for the next one and walked the rest of the way. Which actually maybe the 17 city blocks were the best way to get there, as I ended up going to Twisted Root Burgers for lunch. Which was wonderful but oh so not healthy. Had deep fried pickles for a side.

Texting friends about that was fun, I saw some of what we're covering in one of my classes in action, Hika going "??????" as most not from the south would react, bf just said her little sister would enjoy that. Because we're only kidding a little bit when we say we'll fry anything in Texas.

Also went to Fry's, finally got Sukisho on dvd :D Got Eva 1.1 as well, so I'm ready for seeing 2.0 in theaters in a few weeks.

Now to try to finish eating, before I play more Layton I think. Because playing that in bed is about all I'm up to right now.

...Also, lj spellcheck doesn't think blog is a word. I'm amused.
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Dad just left, so ALONE IN MY APARTMENT.

Away from home. Officially.

Very big place, I will finish putting stuff up then take some video for y'all. It is big, roommate seems nice, and the trip went okay. Got to hang out with dad and mostly keep up with him, man goes at the speed of light.

Also watched some Hetalia with him last night. Not that he was very awake for it. I don't have much furniture but I have to walk five minutes from here to my classroom. Literally five minutes from out the front door to outside my first classroom.

Also It's cold. In the 30s, and it might snow tonight. Ummmmm. I guess I get to see how that goes!

Now for unpacking stuff I was waiting for with dad. Like the yuri paddle I got for Christmas two years back >> And also figuring out why Windows 7 is hating me sound wise *sighs* The rest of the upgrade went so well...
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:D :D :D

In bed that I will not be sleeping in for a while at least. Time to finish getting dressed and put the last stuff up.

I kinda feel like its christmas morning, all that nervousness is gone and just excitement. On the other hand its also like christmas morning that I can tell I did not sleep enough. Only feeling it way more here. So much body ache, and feel so tired. Orz.

Kinda speechless so will keep it at that, need to get moving anyway if I'm not gonna let dad put everything in the car.

Write to y'all next in Richardson I guess <333
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Rena should really take a nap or something

Almost all packed, dealing with the kitchen stuff today which includes convincing mum I don't need to take half the kitchen and a chunk of the dry food with me.

I think I'm going to end up with more boxes for the kitchen then the rest, so maybe not all that successful. On the bright side I have yet to freak out, beyond almost giving myself caffeine intoxication this morning |D But then I've still got till friday, so I'll have time.

Also, new rp has started! I have yet to do a ic comment because I still have reading to finish for it, but I might get enough done by tonight, maybe. Its a small hetalia rp based on the american revolution, I'm playing South Carolina. So with everything else been giving myself a crash course in colonial sc history! Which I'm loving, its been way too long since I got to take a history class <333

Have I mentioned I'm a dork for history?

Also been playing video games, and done more cleaning in my room then I've done in the last ten years. Now if I could just get posters up before I leave, all will be shiney.

Assorted memes I want to do but I have to sit down long to do them. Pc is getting packed today so that pronunciation one will have to wait till sat at least.


Will stop rambling now, though there is a lot more going on. But I think I need to calm down some. Way too high strung at the comment
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Going to finally see the latest HP movie with dad. Yes, very late to getting around to it.

Also getting organizing and cleaning done, my room is almost cleanser then its ever been and I went through my whole wardrobe yesterday. So much clothes @_@

9 days to go, and just now getting budget done. Wtg self >.0
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